Hello Black Dog. Painfully faithful old dog. Stubborn, relentless, familiar old dog. Hello. I knew you were on your way. I heard you sniffing around, felt you scratching at the gate. I tried to keep you out but you found your way in, as you always do. Now you're sat on my doorstep, taking up … Continue reading Hello, Black Dog
I have 2 children. Being their mum feels mostly like sunshine. I don’t have a favourite but I do feel differently about them. My youngest son came to me when I was in a good and steady place. I had a husband. I didn’t have to work because we had security. Everything was settled and … Continue reading I Dont Have A Favourite, but I Do Feel Differently about my Kids.
"When the dark forces of the adult world conspire against you, when you feel that you’re resilience is being tested, put on some gangster shit and handle your business" I'm the Mum. Im a bit of a hero. I try my best to always do what is right and good for my family but sometimes, … Continue reading How to Repair your Shit-Shield (when its not your kids who are breaking it)
I am very happy. I have a very lovely husband and 2 healthy kids. We have money – not a lot but enough to pay all our bills on time. I have great friends who are good to me. I can get almost anything I want or need. I have access to great healthcare and … Continue reading I am not Depressed, I am suffering from Depression.
Today I looked through baby photos - the first few months of my journey into motherhood. I do this every now and then, hoping that one day it might be easier. That I will have healed something, somehow and connected with that maternal joy I was meant to feel during that time. I hope that one … Continue reading I looked at Baby photos today and it Hurt